Well, today in like a hour I am leaving to go to the therapist for a check up, and I am terrified of what she might find, or how she will judge my vulnerable insides, I hate feeling vulnerable, and I know that admiting to being trans is worse than being found out as a potential murderer, like at least they would treat me seriously and with care, but ADHD and being trans? I am afraid of either being ridiculed and told I am being silly, or that my feelings are some convoluted pattern of pathologies paired with childhood trauma and being socialy maladapted instead of my own geniune, valid feelings

in the end, what if I am just born incompetent and destined to fail? Or even worse, I am just weak loser who didnt try hard enough in life?