I just realized my attempts at getting into art college are just me trying to prolong my teenage years in highschool, I already steped into adult life and... thats it? I work, pay my bills, eat and then come home exausted to waste my time till the next work day, I for the love of God cant see what there is to life after college, just work work work and then die, art is the last thing that I enjoy and that connects me with things I find cool, f@ck, I need to work on my portfolio